Theres some cussin here just to warn you.
Ok so yesterday I went with my family to the great New York State Fair.I have some amazing video that I will post in the next few days ( If its not too dark that is).The whole day was wonderful except......for this teenage girl.My 67 yr old mother has terminal lung cancer and needs to be in a wheel chair.That place is PACKED everywhere you go so its hard to move, imagine trying to maneuver a wheelchair.( I think there was almost 80 thousand people there yesterday)Well this teenage girl was with her friend and was blocking entrance to a tent I wanted to get into.I said excuse me twice, she looked back at me but didn't move,so I squeezed by her.She called me a bitch and turned around.Now I was with my family so I decided to let it go, plus its not the 1st, and I doubt the last time, I will be called that.But for the next 10 mins she circled around us and gave me dirty looks the whole time.She stared in my direction no matter where she went, I think she was trying to intimidate me :\ I knew I was being drawn out of my happy place but I couldn't help it.I tried to ignore her and her friend but it was getting hard.She decided to walk past us and leaned over to my mother and said "Get the fuck out of my way grandma" I cut her off as she walked by and said "Excuse me, what did you just say?"( There might have been a f bomb there.....ok Im sure there was)At this point I lost it and the city girl in me came busting out with her head rolling on its shoulders,her fists clenched and her mouth in full force.Her mother had to have been close by because she came running and grabbed her daughter and shoved her away from me, Im guessing to protect her.Her daughter continued to swear and shout things to me and she finally said " Oh Im 15, you cant do anything" To which I let her know that her age was not a shield and that if her mother didn't shut her up I would.Her mother shoved her out of the tent and she stayed out there after that, I meant what I said and maybe she realized that.I hate to admit this because I know its not right but honestly if she had come back over there running her mouth it would have gotten very very ugly.But she stayed outside and just continued to yell to the other girl with her.I went to her mother and asked her if she would like to know what happened and I told her everything, she apologized and went out with her kid and I went on about my business.I looked at the women whos shop we were standing in front of and apologized because I felt so bad and she told me "Don't be sorry!!You didn't start it." Then gave me a high 5 and said "Good for you for protecting your mother, you don't mess with a woman's family" :)
I still feel horrid that I let her get to me and I know I should have let it go.I would have but when she leaned over my mother like that I lost it.Thankfully my mothers hearing isn't the best and she was looking at items on a table so she had no idea what was going on till she heard my big ol mouth lol
I hate to admit this but she was EXTREMELY close to getting her ass handed to her, I don't think she has any idea.I think she thought, like most kids, that they can do as they please and nothing bad is going to happen to them.I know 15 is a child, my son is 16, but honestly if my son EVER said anything like that to someone and he got his ass whooped for it then he deserved it.
I just hate that I got to the point of even wanting to hit her.I was very scrappy as a teenager and even up into my early 20's.I wasn't in a emotionally or spiritually healthy place back then.And as a teenager I led a very wild life.So it seems that I can jump back to the mind set very quickly :( I really thought that I had evolved and grew as a person.But there I was, a grown adult arguing with a pissy 15 yr old girl.... who was just like I was.
I honestly hadn't been that angry in a very long time.I still am a bit angry about it and am hoping that typing all of this out will help vent some of it.I hate to admit any of this because I know it sounds terrible on my part, and I wont argue with that. Healthy adults do not argue with mouthy teenagers.Healthy adults see it for what it is and move on.I chose to stand there and argue about it.I chose to stoop to that level and let her take me out of my happy place and I allowed it to fill me with anger.And since Im being honest here,if I saw that girl today I would still want to punch her face out the back of her head.I feel bad for her mother who seemed to be horrified by the whole thing.Im going to guess from her reaction that it was not the 1st time she has had to deal with something like that, its just a hunch.
Ok so there is my tale in all its ugliness.I should probably delete all of this because now Im going to fret about people looking at me in a different light.But I don't know what light you guys looked at me in to even begin with, so Im going to leave it lol It is what it is and its a honest post so Im leaving it.